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i haven't taxed myself mentally like this for so long i've forgotten how it feels to be all stressed out about every single tiny little thing under the sun. the workload we have nowadays seriously make me want to tear out my hair (however little i have left of it). i really am trying my very best now, to study hard everyday, be diligent in doing tutorials, stay awake during lectures and putting in my utmost effort to write a good or at least acceptable written report for PW.

but i am still doing badly for tests and am once again, starting to fall behind in studies despite all my efforts to do well. i know that i have, at best, limited brain power and ability when it comes to academic issues, and when it comes down to the final hurdle of the year, the promos, the confidence i have of passing my subjects is zilch.

i can't help it that i'm plain stupid, but for now i'll push myself to the limit if that's what it takes to pass promos and submit a final written report that i myself can be proud of.

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