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this is terrible. i shall make use of this white box here to complain. :D my throat and nose is killing me, my temperature just rose up to 38 degrees again and i probably have to pop panadols and say hello to my dear bed again. -.- i HATE my bed now. have been stuck on it since 5pm yesterday and only left it at 1pm today when my mam decides to go accompany my dad to meet the teachers. sheesh.

i should be memorising chinese phrases now but zzz.

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yesterday was last day of term 2! got back PPR, which sucked to the core.

a wong: "your results are average. but, are you happy with average?"
me: " ....?! duh not. who will be happy with average??"

i did improve from term 1 but when you get 23 for term 1 and still don't improve, something's terribly wrong. >:(

i'm sick of having the worst grades in class for almost everything. i'm sick of listening to how i'm going to "REGRET" not studying hard enough by the baby boomer generation. i'm sick of feeling disappointed with myself for everything. i'm sick of disappointing my parents time and again despite their encouragements.

my mother just messaged me: "hi, your e maths got A1 and papa's eyes brightened up straightaway, jiayou!"

darn, am really sad now. mam and dad, i'm really sorry for always disappointing you guys. >:(

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the rest of thursday was spent battling a weird headache but got sorta cheered by emily chua's sweet and cute warm fuzzy in the form of a one and a half page long gong han letter telling me how "ah kok is a good racer" and to jiayou to get my chinese A1! xD siyan and roxanne also wrote a note to "use my ah kok prowess to get the A1!"

for all the encouragement, thank you 4 truth! you guys are so sweet and nice! <3
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went to watch jf's juniors' colour party after school before going to the library to enjoy the aircon. found bella "in a corner" and we talked crap about twilight and yada, before throwing worm infested pillows around.

xinying: "i really appreciate your pillow throwing skills, but just so you know, they're not exactly the best around......."

HAHA. xD

bulk of cca after that was spent in a corner with bella reading and memorizing chinese stuffs, as well as "taking part" in the library election. weiduo and txy came back but the latter was too busy playing ping pong downstairs to come up at first. so played some funny puzzle game with weiduo and her friend and she started suaning me again, as usual. sheesh, red badges are all seriously mean. :D i fail at rush hour man. weiduo and her friend took maybe 30 or 40 seconds to solve the puzzle and i take what, 3 minutes and still get everything jumbled up lol. :/ afterwards got forced by weiduo to call txy to come up.

she came up after that to pass me her history notes, which was filled with really weird pictures haha. thanks! then they both started going to their school webs/ class blogs and commenting on how txy looks like a guy playing soccer and how black she's become. apparently, weiduo is currently being "chased" by someone and txy is "attached". HAHA, sure. who are those suay people.

anyway, turns out kuan is the president and puisan vice.

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went back to studying chinese with bella and head started throbbing like mad, so whipped out my ever trusty thermometer and stuck it under my tongue. 38.8 degrees! haha bella started scolding and nagging at me about how i should go home straightaway and zijin messaged me, telling me that she'll "tell roxanne to do something" if i dont go home straightaway. was quite funny, the way they got so agitated when there i was, sitting calmly at a corner.

ended up going home by myself because parents were too far away to fetch. crashed in bed for hours on end, popping panadol after panadol, water after water and ice after ice.

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shall go sleep again haha. :D