i have exactly 45 minutes to plough through the internet, read whatever i wanna read and blog whatever i wanna blog. because once THEY come back and catch me dancing my fingers across the tapboard, i'd be grilled.

JUST BECAUSE i told them casually that i wouldn't really mind that much if i ended up smack in a lousy JC next year. obviously they couldnt tell that i was actually joking. jokes just don't go well with the O levels in their eyes.

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anyway, it's thursday that i wanna blog about.

being only one of three people in my class who don't take higher chinese, we didnt have to worry about taking back our chinese O level results. the rest of our classmates were on tenterhooks and some were even doing some sorta countdown to the time the results are released. (something i would definitely do next year, even though countdowns like these just spells NERVY)

BUT, despite being uninvolved, i was feeling super worried the whole day. i wanted everybody in my class to get their A1s, only because i didnt want to witness them cry.

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then at about 1 something, yellow badges started pouring into the MPR, red badges started flying into the hall, and the minority us who don't take higher chinese were shoved into the AVA room to do 应用文。 hello. 应用文 when the O LEVEL results were being released??? how anti climatic.

and then, as we were halfway through that damned 应用文, we got ordered into the hall to see how the red badges fared.

we walked into the hall to join the rest of the higher chinese yellow badges and i saw what i least wanted to see.

it wasn't a pretty sight. some classmates were in tears or staring dazedly ahead. others were grinning from ear to ear, laughing gaily. it was easy, so easy to see who were the ones who had done well. i saw my sitting partner in tears too and the feeling was terrible. disappointment is a bitter pill to swallow and somehow i can attest to that very well.

straightaway after that, names of the red badges on the honour roll were flashed. i found myself cheering like mad when the first name i spotted was tanxinyi! was super super happy for her!! hah, i just knew this crazy ex senior of mine would get her 6 points. duh. like what renyue said, some people just have the "i'm smart, what about you?" look.

then as more people hopped onto stage, more tears were shed. this time, those tears were for a very different emotion altogether.

on the 10 A1s honour roll list, YUXI was called up!!! zhuwei and i started bouncing around and yelling at everybody who were within earshot that she was our senior and president!!! LOL. two librarians on the cards. somemore one top scorer. not bad for such a small cca man. =)))

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ah wells. anxiety, sympathy, sadness, exhiliration. i felt that all in one short day. despite being uninvolved more or less.

next year, i want my tears shed to be that of sheer happiness.

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notes from the lighter side:

anyway! the red badges came back to see us! dongdong, zhenying, weiduo, nic, yuxi, adeline, eve.... blah blah blah.

got accused of being blur and blind by dongdong. JUST BECAUSE i didnt see her when i opened the door.

got accused of being DAO by weiduo. JUST BECAUSE i jumped out and said yo to nic ann lee first.

got made into a makeshift table by zhenying, who missed marking the attendance so much. EVEN THOUGH there was a table somewhere near.

got accused of not knowing anything by zhenying, weiduo and nic. JUST BECAUSE i was doing the bloody board and was completely clueless about the sec 1 orientation, which was not planned by moi.

like hello, where's the "long time no see!" or "how're ya!" or "missed ya all!".

ah wells. how many years have i known them. MEAN is just nailed into their vocabulary. =DD

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the new sec 1s looked intimidating. didnt bother talking to them much la. like for what. we're leaving soon liao anyways. =)

can't wait to step down!!! even though i might miss some of my dear juniors men. okay maybe not. i don't wanna step down THAT quick. i just don't want to have anything to do with the notice board, attendance lists, MCs, duty rosters, scrabble money collecting and being a scrabble informer anymore. 3 whole years doing them is more than enough!

but i'll still love scrabble no matter what. =)

on hindnote, that pizza we ate was nice. i'm feeling hungry now. rawr.

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oh jeez. better get to studying quick! i want (to continue dreaming about) my 6 points!