*me gives a weird look*
"you look like an emoticon!!!" abby said at 9.30pm on saturday.

fine. so my sis thinks i look like an emoticon. is that supposed to be a compliment??? MAYBE. depends on what emoticon it is.....

okay just had a LOONG convo with my dear farger stef hsu. AHAHA. it took me one whole hour to figure out what she's talking about!!! HEHE. YAYNESS. i seriously cant wait to go kayaking with farger!! even if its a kayaking course to nowhere. bleh. XD i simply love crapping.. WHEE.

oh.. and over the weekend i bought a new OP school bag.. WHEW, can FINALLY replace my old torn and tattered fake nike. but its uber EX. im gonna be even broker than before man.. since this week i'll still be going out to shop with aboleng for new stuffs like clothes and pencil cases and whatshits despite having quite empty pockets already. sheesh i think im turning spendthrifty and shopaholicly.

anyway, i skipped duty AGAIN today. gosh, cant believe how guai1 im. i probably owe like what, 10 hours?? i hate to think of how im ever gonna make them up man. hehe and today's reason for ponning? cuz we were doing project! even though we didnt really get much done, but thats a different matter altogether!XD hilary, yanlin and i (eh i realise that irrelevant stuffs are always made small here. ya and our initials make up S.H.Y!! uh okay, im being lame) went to the library to TRY to edit and summarise the research info but ya, needless to say we didnt get anywhere. yups. end of story. the sequel will be on saturday at my house, AGAIN.

ya and now finally i have no choice but to devote one last paragraph to some depressing facts.

what else? results. results. and more results. im seriously beginning to think that i dun belong in my class. my e math results belong in the bottom 9 in class and my a math(haha and what's with the alpha and beta now...) is somewhere in the bottom 13. my chem is beyond horrible and my bio is hovering near the bottom 4, out of a class which has 37 people.

nothing is going right. nothing ever goes right.

i got into this class purely because of my lit and english anyway and i know that other than these 2 subjects, i practically suck at everything else. so i wouldnt be surprised if i get kicked out of anything.

it is depressing. very depressing. and i really don't know what im supposed to do. keeping everything bottled up is not the best solution but i am not a person who shows emotions easily and i have no idea how to pick myself out from the quicksand im falling into. .

maybe.. MAYBE, right from the beginning, i made the wrong decision. maybe i made the wrong decision in opting for the offered C1a. maybe it would have been better if i had just stuck with b, because im just not fit for this class. im just not good enough.

can somebody lend me an hourglass to turn back time? pretty please?

But i LOVE 3 TRUTH anyway. ((: new motivation for me to work hard!! (: hmm.. shall kan kai dian. yay! ((: