"flames to dust, lovers to friends. why do all good things come to an end?"

just decided to sit here and waste away my time.. i actually intended to practice for the upcoming competition but i somehow ended up reading other people's blogs. so kaypo eh? haish.

argh i am beginning to feel really worried and depressed. i left my books in school and i cant do my homework. if it ends up being a graded assignment, i might as well go bang my head on the wall. i've been flunking enough tests and graded assignments, and i dun want to do that again. sometimes i seriously wonder whether they made a mistake when they offered me the c1a form sometime ago. or whether i made a mistake with the subject combi i've chosen. whatever it is, it is really time to stop hiding from the fact that im extremely behind in all aspects of lessons and start to buck up.

the first things i must do are:
- Listen in class and stop staring into space. i may LOOK like im listening attentively but this is when i actually have castles flying around my head or something.
- STOP PROCRASTINATING. this is the crime im must guilty of. lin shi bao fo jiao doeesnt work, seriously. i ought to change this stupid attitude of mine.
- stop spending hours and hours on the computer, or reading newspapers or watching television.

and that is just for starters. the list is never ending.

anyway, it'll be valentines day next wednesday... i guess i shall go buy chocolates to give away. hmm. i shall just give my close friends only. hehe. :D but which means i'll have to fly to other classes to do that. aiya heck though.