what can i say? the second death in our family within 4 years. the wake was especially sad. my relatives, young and old alike, were shedding tears throughout the last day of the wake and being an easily affected person, i had to struggle to control myself. the atmosphere for the first 2 days was bubbly but it changed drastically on the last day. sombre. maybe 3 years ago, i was still too young to understand wakes. but now i'd like to think that i do. wakes represent guilt, represents a whole string of regrets and sorrows. and i saw a great deal of that on the last day, just before my grandmother's corpse was brought in to be cremated. after seeing that, i have a new new year resolution, treasure each and every person close to me. i would really hate to have any regrets.

funeral wakes are really hard to put into words, especially the mixed feelings involved, so i guess i shan't harp on that.

anyway, on the happier note, im beginning to like 3 Truth more. (: such a nice class. (:

hmm, since my sister wants to use the computer so desperately, i guess i shall grant her her wish. after all, i've still gotta compile yan lin's and my literature mind map together first..