ok.. good news: my dad is finally deciding to buy a new computer, albeit in mid september or so.
bad news: i have to use my father's laptop to do my school work now and am banned from using msn or email since my dad is so afraid of getting any viruses. but it's understandable lah, if his laptop ends up like our 7 year old computer, he's gonna get the sack. such is the job world nowadays. sad yeah?

hmm.. actually i've got loads of things to type in today's blog entry since i haven been blogging for like ages since our stupid computer decided to break down.. but i am not exactly allowed much time on his precious laptop... but heck. i must get something in today's entry.

EPL is finally back after so long and there are already hot topics stirring up.. like how liverpool and arsenal got held to 1-1 draws by sheffield united and aston villa respectively.. how chelsea lost 1-2 to boro within the last ten minutes of their match.. and man u getting max points so far.. hmmm.. seriously i dun any team winning the league as long as chelsea are steered off the path.. liverpool winning it would be all the merrier of course.. :D

anyway, i've decided not to recap on my week's happenings anymore.. i shall just type anything i deem interesting enough that comes intomy mind..

my mother revealed something quite shocking to me a few days back.. she was asking me so randomly, "i wonder where the dead foetus was buried at.." i swear, i almost dropped the bowl i was holding.. i had totally forgotten about my still born elder sister/brother until she reminded me... which made me wonder, if this sibling of mine got born into the world, where would i be? would i be leading a better life than now or a worse one or would i not even get born into this world.. this is so creepy.. my mother said if that foetus was born, she would not want a third child, who will probably be surplus to requirements.. do i believe in reincarnations? i seriously do. i believe in destiny too.. but all these issues are mind boggling and i do not expect them to be solved anytime soon,despite all these advanced technology... these are just some matters that will be a mystery forever, unless u experience i firsthand or sth...

anyway, 2530 de xing fu has ended already!! so sad sad sad... our family, avid listeners of 1003, went to sign our names at popular in jubilee just now..hmm.. i wonder if they'll reach the 10 000 listeners they aim to.. i hope they do, so that we can listen to more radio dramas next time.. 1000 of the "signers" will get to get a special cd featuring 2530's chatacters 3 years down the road.. gosh, i want that cd!! but too bad it's not for sale i guess... a pity.. :( maybe i can find the people who managed to get the cd and borrow it from them or sth.. hehe, aiya fat hope lahh.. we just have to hope that we are lucky enough lor...10% chance..

i just realised how boring my cca is.. without scrabble, the whole place is like a walking zombie or watever. grr, i resolve to pluck up my courage to tell mrs tian to let us practice scrabble the next time we have cca in october since we're gonna stop cca for some time. im so gonna get xinyi to come with me.. otherwise i'll freak out in her presence...

haiz.. there's nothing to look forward to now except soccer.. no scrabble,no nice tv shows, no 2530.. no nothing la.. except for a whole load of exams that r coming up and the fact that my stupid art is gonna pull my entire grade down. i failed photoshop what the hell. 5/20. how glam isnt it? probably the lowest in the entire level manns. :( im so a computer idiot. hais.

heehee i just remembered sth.. my BIRTHDAY is arriving. teehee. so ego head la but whatever. i dun really expect any presents cuz my friends are AWAY. hehe. anyway, boy my sister can act. i forced her to use her creativity to tell me her version of 2530 de xing fu and she did! it was so hilarious! gosh... she can go and be a script writer next time manns. i'll support my jie jie!! :)

actually i had something bad to say about my parents here but argh i cant really be bothered anymore. my anger has since subsided since dad agreed to buy us a new computer. at least he's not THAT stingy. i think i already got the genes from him. i have to admit i am a stingy freak, but if u r living in my house u will know why. money DUN come easily for us and my dad spends at least 400 bucks a week on billiard and 4d, toto and bettings. it's sad how we have to pay everything ourselves and then i divert that to school. so my frens, please understand why i refuse to lend u all paper sometimes.. money and purse strings are sorta tight at home.. so i have to say i can never be a generous person. sad. :( my sister expressed suh feelings in her diary too, and they sort of sum up all my thoughts too... we think quite alike from each other except for the fact that i dun think i am smart or anything..

over the 8 years or so i've been at st nicholas, i've suddenly began to turn introvert.the bubbly kindergartener who used to fight with boys physically and verbally has since turned into a meek little lamb, succumbing to many things, stress, exams, loneliness, and others. now it has come to a stage when sometimes, i'd rather be left alone. i'm beginning to hide up my things in school and i dun understand why. im so protective... i remember how i lashed out at a certain claire phee and ehhem stef hsu in p4 and i think it was hilarious. but whatever la. i am a hot tempered person. i lash out a lot. except thAT now, im learning the art of controlling. this paragraph is not gonna make sense to people who dun really know me so watever.. it's just for myself to read i guess. i suppose i like to play around with words.. :D so that i can have hidden meanings. tehee. maybe that's why i dun do that badly in english and english literature. i like to analyse la.

hmm, i was on my way home this thursday when i got the shock of my life. i thought i saw someone who looked like my deceased granny. of course, when i took a closer look, it was a totally different person altogether. now come to think of it, i am beginning to miss my granny. it has been two years since i last spoke to her in broken hokkien. "ah ma, le ay dian wei" "ah ma! wu lang ay gar le gong wei" "er.. wa umm zai an zua gar le gong" and other stuffs... haiz.. but everyone has to leave the world someday..we shall just take it that they have gone to a much better place than this world....

ok so i crapped again. chu le ming de crapper in my class by now i guess... hmm.. gtg watch my soccer and eat now...