yeah yeah wadever. i just realised that im an extremely weird person.. uh.. didnt realise that i was so... er... imaginative in the bad way. i was watching "my brother" featuring won bin on e city and even though the plot was mainstream and pretty predictable, it sorta evoked several thoughts in me.. what will happen (god forbid it. choi. touch wood) if one day one of my family members leave without any warning? it's like, i haven done anything worthy of praise for them.. i'm often so absorbed in my own world that i dun really care about my family.. if it really happens, my whole world is probably going to crash down on me.. there'll be so many things which i'll regret.. especially the fact that i often take them for granted, being the self centered person i am.. i still remember what my mother told me a few days ago.. she mentioned to me what will happen to my sister and i if she suddenly leave one day because of her deteriorating health.. and i was so shell shocked that i avoided her question.. but after some reflections, i came up with an answer for myself: we will collapse. it's as simple as that.. after all, a mother is like our legs. how can we still be able to walk without them?? so now i resolve to try my utmost best to be nicer to them and not throw tantrums or flare up easily.. so that i will not live to regret when misfortunes befall us or sth..

well i guess i should stop here. if i continue on, i'll probably write this for a whole day.. after all, it's quite a sensitive issue.. and one that's easy to harp about because it just requires some simple self reflection.

i hate to end on a sad note.. so i shall just attempt to cheer myself up by saying... TODAY THE WORLD CUP OFFICIALLY BEGIN TO KICK OFF! hehe.. :DDD