gosh. i. simply. cannot. BELIEVE THIS!!!!! ok.. so there i was, sitting innocently and having my chinese tuition when my sister flew to the kitchen and gave me some hand signals. it looked like a 3 on her finger. 3??? what on earth does that mean? after pondering over it for about 15 minutes, i garnered that it must have been something to do with scrabble. what else could make her so anxious?

after my tuition has ended, i poured into the room where she immediately jumped up. uh oh, now what? i swear, that after she told me that piece of news, i practically had to swallow down that big lump which formed in my throat. did i hear correctly?? i think she said sth like jeridyn telling her that she met austin tan (our scrabble instructor) at the primary inter school scrabble competition and he said that many teams won 15-0, like us. so it really depends on the spread we get. he also mentioned that it would have been better if we had gotten a 5000 points spread instead of our 3200 plus. haiz... WHY ON EARTH DIDNT HE TELL US EARLIER? if he had, we'd all at least have been mentally prepared for the outcome instead of thinking confidently that we can get in!!!!

after a while i couldnt stand it anymore.. so i messaged my seniors, michelle and xin yi. their responses were so diff. cha tian cha di. but come to think of it, xin yi's response was more xian shi, ethical and rational. she said that we had no hope anymore.. but ya know what? being the stubborn me, i'd rather follow michelle's response.. she said we ought to pray and hope for the best. hopefully we can get in thru luck. well, i certainly hope so.. which is why i've been silently praying for da whole day and clutching my pi xiu.. haiz. but there's nothing else we can do anymore rite? what's done cannot be undone, no matter how much i want to turn back the clock. our scrabble team (arguably the most bonded one amongst the other two SNGS teams) will probably have to be disbanded very soon, since my sista, jeridyn and michelle would have zapped off to JCs after this year. which will leave only xin yi and myself. :( nvm, both of us, together with our new team members next year shall strive for the best!! and hopefully get into the finals. ) amen. amitabbha.